This did not come from me. I was content with my older four children. I was in a high paying career. I had just sold all my baby stuff. Another child did not fit into my symmetrical brain.
My husband took the biggest leap of faith when the morning after he said no, he said, "I think you are crazy, but Heavenly Father gives you revelation regarding childbirth."
We would need to seek help from a professional to get pregnant for the first time ever.
The endocrine reproductive doctor did more tests than I knew existed, and I didn't understand why they were even necessary because we knew the man-made problem. So when the doctor made me promise to follow up on my abnormal lab values, I wasn't worried. As my dad says, I'm "a baby making machine."
Annastasia was my most difficult pregnancy. I was beyond tired, I lost hair, gained the most weight, and my legs hurt. I attributed it to my advanced maternal age.
I half heartedly followed up on my labs while I was still breast feeding. They didn't test all the labs, but the ones we did were normal.
The leg pain continued, so I had more labs and ultrasounds without any cause.
My fatigue was so bad; I pleaded with my doctor to give me something for sleep. I quit one job and scaled the other job down to only once a week.
Nothing help. I drank more water. I became taking vitamins and other supplements.
I was becoming depressed. Chronic pain and chronic fatigue were a horrible way to live. Only the love of that baby kept me around.
I finally returned to my doctor and had all the labs repeated even the obscure ones.
This time the problem was revealed.
I now put my faith back in my Heavenly Father. I was supposed to have Annie in order to expose my health problems; He was helping me.
And I now know that Heavenly Father really does love me.
